… The reason I felt alone was not many people were being true and telling me that they struggled and man did I feel like a train wreck. Little by little God began to show me how merciful he is and he knew my heart and he knew I really wanted to change.I felt like a misfit to alot of people in the church but they also knew I was not your typical christian guy converted.. So I also had jealous christians in the church who spoke behind my back at times. I did connect with a few Great christian older …